Avicii’s final diary entries illuminate the depths of the struggle to break the cycle – EDM.com

Måns Mosesson’s new book, Tim – The Official Biography of Avicii, illuminates the iconic dance music artist’s everyday feelings and struggles with mental illness in ways never before presented.

The biography includes entries in the personal diary of the 28-year-old “Wake Me Up” producer, who tragically died by suicide in Oman in 2018. Written during his hospital stays for drug and alcohol abuse, the entries show the struggle Avicii’s persistent to break the cycle.

“I had a hard time accepting never drinking again, even though all my doctors strongly suggested I wait at least a year before having a beer,” Avicii wrote, according to The Daily Beast. “Of course, I didn’t listen to most of the doctors, I listened to the couple who said it’s fine if I was careful. I was ignorant and naive and I was touring the world, still on the endless tour, because once I you’ve circled, guess what? You start over.”

Tim – Avicii's Official Biography

Tim – Avicii’s Official Biography

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When Avicii announced he was retiring from touring in 2016, he wrote an open letter to fans suggesting he longed for the cadence of an ordinary life.

“I’m lucky enough to be able to travel the world and perform, but I have very little left for the life of a real person behind the artist,” he said at the time. As the New York Post points out, by the time Avicii rehabbed, she had already suffered the physical effects of the demanding lifestyle, including acute pancreatitis.

Avicii would go on to write that his hospital days were “vacation” themselves, as they silenced the stress and anxiety of his everyday life. In his final entry, written the day before his suicide, he allegedly wrote his devastating last words: “Soul shedding is the last attachment, before it reboots!”

You can purchase your copy of Avicii’s official biography here. Proceeds from book sales will benefit the Tim Bergling Foundation, a charity launched by Avicii’s parents in memory of their son to fund research and develop preventative solutions to suicide.

Editor’s Note: If you are having suicidal thoughts, you can call the 24/7 National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or visit SuicidePreventionLifeline.org.

Source: edm.com